Hope against all hope

This Lord’s day I’ve had some precious moments in God’s Word amidst the constant chatter of little children, helping one sew and answering their questions. I count it a blessing that I can sit on my bed with little children everywhere it seems. I keep reminding myself, one day it won’t be like this. And I’m slowly learning that God speaks to us amidst the noise of life.

Some seasons of life are harder than others. After 7 long years of my pastor-husband being in seminary, working several part-time jobs to provide for us, doing internships, serving in many different capacities etc. etc., we found ourselves, under the great umbrella of God’s providence, back in school and once again, in the waiting season after he resigned from a pastoral position 8 months ago. Here we are, back in school ( I laugh because Kevin could have been a doctor by now after all this schooling 🙂 ), and in another period of transition, awaiting where the Lord will lead us next, but not having any idea of where that will be or what it will look like.

“Against all hope, Abraham believed.” Romans 4:18 Against. All. Hope. In other words, when there was no reason to hope, he believed. I went on to read these words:

“He generally waits to send His help until the time of our greatest need, so that His hand will be plainly seen in our deliverance. He chooses this method so we will not trust anything that we may see or feel, as we are so prone to do, but will place our trust solely on His Word – which may always depend upon, no matter our circumstances. –C.H. Von Bogatzsky

Remember, the very time for faith to work is when our sight begins to fail. And the greater the difficulties, the easier it is for faith to work, for as long as we can see certain natural solutions to our problems, we will not have faith. Faith never works as easily as when our natural prospects fail. –George Mueller

What a beautiful, peaceful thing it is to know we are right where God would have us for this chapter He is writing in our lives – amidst great difficulties, working out our faith to greater depths and sweetly caring for our children who have had to walk this road with us. He has graciously placed us in our greatest time of need. It has felt like torture at times-lonely, fearful, trying to push away the dark clouds of doubt but never have we experienced the nearness of the Lord like we do now nor been given the opportunity to truly trust Him, as we do today. And so, in our gratitude, we shout amidst our suffering …